a new life

Holy moly. So this blog was created back in January when I was required to have one for my New Media class, and I more or less just remembered it existed. I realized that now, more than ever, I need a place to write. There have been some big changes, which require big thoughts, and those thoughts need to be let out. I don't think theres anyone who will read this besides myself, but thats okay. I'm considering this to be my own personal thing, so I can eventually read back and see how I used to feel about things.

You may notice my location isn't Bristol, CT anymore. I moved down to the nation's capital to finish up college and experience life a little bit. The move has been good, but really hard on me so far. I'm bad with change. I get comfortable with living the same way and that's usually just how I like things to be, the same. I fear change, responsibility, failing. I'm sick of relying on others when I know I need to rely on myself alot more. I just have to push myself a little bit and I think I'll be just fine.

I'll tell you though, never in my life did I ever think I'd miss Bristol. But i totally do. I miss my house, and my bed, and my family, and my friends. And I miss having an accessible car (ive walked/biked more in the last three weeks than i have in my entire life haha). So far classes are pretty crummy. I went from feeling really smart to feeling very lost and out of place in school. I think it's just the combination of bad classes this semester thats making my first experience at this school feel difficult.

Saturday night, I did decide to go out and meet a friend at a party. If you've known me for a long time, you'd probably think I'm the life of the party, and easily able to go out and meet new people. Since being down here, I've found a completely different side of myself that's socially afraid to go out and meet new people, and I can't figure out why that is. But I did go out, despite feeling a little nervous about it, and I honestly had a really good time. I met some really nice girls that seemed to think I was nice too, or so i hope. All in all I was just glad to have gotten out of the apartment for a change.

I should also mention Pat. Of course he's one of the reasons I moved down here, if not the biggest one of all. I'm just really blessed to have him in my life and he's been my biggest support through everything, and not just since being down here. And I admire him. He takes everything for what it is, and never complains. I can only hope to be even a fraction of what he is someday. He makes the days go by a lot easier for me, and for that, I am forever grateful.